Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Leaving Denmark

I am actually writing this post 5 months after we left Denmark.  Life has been crazy and I've gotten very behind on blogging.  I'm trying to catch up, so we'll see how it goes.  Leaving Denmark has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.  As I write this, so many months later, the memories continue to evoke harsh emotions.  I write with tears in my eyes.  I miss Denmark so much.  We are still struggling to find our place here, back in the US.
The logistics of moving back was a nightmare.  We moved to Denmark with only 5 bags.  After 3 years, there was no way we were moving back with that few of belongings.  So, we started sorting.  Things that definitely had to go (mostly souvenirs, kids toys and books, clothing), things that definitely had to stay (dishes, furniture, Dexter) and the maybe's, that mostly ended up being in the stay pile (those huge towels I bought in Belgium, my favorite shoes, more toys and books.)  I try not to get too attached to things, but it was very painful going through all our belongings and making the decision on what to leave behind.  Before we knew it, our go pile was packed in 7 bags and 5 carry-ons!  Yikes!  Our friends, Tanja and Jonas Krogstrup adopted Dexter.  This was an extremely difficult decision.  We just decided that we couldn't take him with us, since our future was unknown and looking back, we definitely made the right decision.  Dexter found a great home, where he is loved very much and this has lessened the sting of having to leave him behind.  We will always miss him though.  He was just what we needed. We sold a few things, gave away as much as we could and still ended up taking some things out to the garbage.  Before we knew it, the house was empty and it was time for our last good-bye's.  Alaina and her kids came over the morning we were flying out.  We talked for a long time, until it was time to go.  Alaina saved me.  When I desperately needed a friend, we met the Jensen's.  I couldn't have asked for a better friend.  I know that we will always keep in touch.  I still miss her every day.  The kids were also sad to leave one another.  Noah still is planning on marrying Olivia. =)
Our bishop, Lars Paulsen and his wife, Cecilia came with their trailer to take us to the airport.  We were so touched by them doing this for us.  We thought we would just have to get a cab, but it was so great having friends with us until the end.  They drove us and said good-bye.  We were then in the airport and on our way.
Leaving Denmark left us physically and emotionally drained.  I think I spent much of the last few weeks there on the verge of tears.  Moving was so hard, so painful.  Moving to Denmark was difficult, but we knew we'd be back.  Leaving Denmark, well, will we ever go back?  Probably not to live, hopefully to visit, but it will be different. We are just so grateful for such an amazing experience.  Life changing, really.  And it did change us, for the better.  Jeg elsker Danmark!

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